DFD

D Griff wrote: ↑Tue Dec 04, 2018 3:46 pm Congrats dude, awesome work on taking first in your class!

Pretty crazy how lean you got, you've never carried much fat and I've always considered you a lean guy, so wild how much further you took it.

Truly and I'm glad you're now eating some brownies.

SAWCE wrote: ↑Wed Dec 05, 2018 12:48 pm On a different/bad note, I had a weird realization as I looked through pictures again yesterday and spent some time on the ones of my mom and I. Our faces have the same sunken in look although mine is more pronounced. Weird to think that mine is by choice, where her's is becaue of the cancer/chemo/radiation literally killing her and making her so sick all the time that she can't bring herself to eat. The whole thing seemed incredibly fucked up when that hit me and had me in a weird mood the rest of the day.

Fuck man. Coming to terms with your parents' mortality when they're so relatively young is rough. Part of me wishes I could trade places with her, but the other part of me knows it'd be even harder for her to watch me go through that as her child than it is for me to watch her. Which is worse, physical or emotional pain?

Big Brain Bradley wrote: ↑Wed Dec 05, 2018 1:08 pm

SAWCE wrote: ↑Wed Dec 05, 2018 12:48 pm On a different/bad note, I had a weird realization as I looked through pictures again yesterday and spent some time on the ones of my mom and I. Our faces have the same sunken in look although mine is more pronounced. Weird to think that mine is by choice, where her's is becaue of the cancer/chemo/radiation literally killing her and making her so sick all the time that she can't bring herself to eat. The whole thing seemed incredibly fucked up when that hit me and had me in a weird mood the rest of the day.

Fuck man. Coming to terms with your parents' mortality when they're so relatively young is rough. Part of me wishes I could trade places with her, but the other part of me knows it'd be even harder for her to watch me go through that as her child than it is for me to watch her. Which is worse, physical or emotional pain?

Thats dark.


DFD has been too dark.

Just hug your mom and spend some time with her man.

SAWCE wrote:On a different/bad note, I had a weird realization as I looked through pictures again yesterday and spent some time on the ones of my mom and I. Our faces have the same sunken in look although mine is more pronounced. Weird to think that mine is by choice, where her's is becaue of the cancer/chemo/radiation literally killing her and making her so sick all the time that she can't bring herself to eat. The whole thing seemed incredibly fucked up when that hit me and had me in a weird mood the rest of the day.

Fuck man. Coming to terms with your parents' mortality when they're so relatively young is rough. Part of me wishes I could trade places with her, but the other part of me knows it'd be even harder for her to watch me go through that as her child than it is for me to watch her. Which is worse, physical or emotional pain?

SAWCE wrote:Figure I'll keep this thread updated with my personal gym stuff.

Saturday morning for my official weigh in to send my coach, I was 197.4. Up almost 12lbs in the week. 95% of that is easily going to be food (stored glycogen) and water.

Excited to see how much I can grow after this. Setting some goals for myself for next year: add 2" on my thighs (I measure about 8" down from my crotch), add 1.5" on my upper arms, add 1" on my forearms. I'm not super concerned with growth on my back or chest, but I really want to chase numbers on my limbs since they still look lanky to me with how tall I am.

SAWCE wrote: ↑Wed Dec 05, 2018 12:48 pm On a different/bad note, I had a weird realization as I looked through pictures again yesterday and spent some time on the ones of my mom and I. Our faces have the same sunken in look although mine is more pronounced. Weird to think that mine is by choice, where her's is becaue of the cancer/chemo/radiation literally killing her and making her so sick all the time that she can't bring herself to eat. The whole thing seemed incredibly fucked up when that hit me and had me in a weird mood the rest of the day.

Fuck man. Coming to terms with your parents' mortality when they're so relatively young is rough. Part of me wishes I could trade places with her, but the other part of me knows it'd be even harder for her to watch me go through that as her child than it is for me to watch her. Which is worse, physical or emotional pain?

Tarspin wrote: ↑Mon Dec 10, 2018 8:38 pm

SAWCE wrote: ↑Wed Dec 05, 2018 12:48 pm On a different/bad note, I had a weird realization as I looked through pictures again yesterday and spent some time on the ones of my mom and I. Our faces have the same sunken in look although mine is more pronounced. Weird to think that mine is by choice, where her's is becaue of the cancer/chemo/radiation literally killing her and making her so sick all the time that she can't bring herself to eat. The whole thing seemed incredibly fucked up when that hit me and had me in a weird mood the rest of the day.

Fuck man. Coming to terms with your parents' mortality when they're so relatively young is rough. Part of me wishes I could trade places with her, but the other part of me knows it'd be even harder for her to watch me go through that as her child than it is for me to watch her. Which is worse, physical or emotional pain?

My 58 yr old uncle passed away this week. The family if devastated. It's really hard both ways buddy.

Tarspin wrote: ↑Mon Dec 10, 2018 8:38 pm

SAWCE wrote: ↑Wed Dec 05, 2018 12:48 pm On a different/bad note, I had a weird realization as I looked through pictures again yesterday and spent some time on the ones of my mom and I. Our faces have the same sunken in look although mine is more pronounced. Weird to think that mine is by choice, where her's is becaue of the cancer/chemo/radiation literally killing her and making her so sick all the time that she can't bring herself to eat. The whole thing seemed incredibly fucked up when that hit me and had me in a weird mood the rest of the day.

Fuck man. Coming to terms with your parents' mortality when they're so relatively young is rough. Part of me wishes I could trade places with her, but the other part of me knows it'd be even harder for her to watch me go through that as her child than it is for me to watch her. Which is worse, physical or emotional pain?

My 58 yr old uncle passed away this week. The family if devastated. It's really hard both ways buddy.

SAWCE wrote: ↑Mon Dec 10, 2018 10:45 pm

Tarspin wrote: ↑Mon Dec 10, 2018 8:38 pm

My 58 yr old uncle passed away this week. The family if devastated. It's really hard both ways buddy.

Dang Sorry to hear that man. Reach out if you need anything.

Calvinball wrote: ↑Mon Dec 10, 2018 8:27 pm

SAWCE wrote:Figure I'll keep this thread updated with my personal gym stuff.

Saturday morning for my official weigh in to send my coach, I was 197.4. Up almost 12lbs in the week. 95% of that is easily going to be food (stored glycogen) and water.

Excited to see how much I can grow after this. Setting some goals for myself for next year: add 2" on my thighs (I measure about 8" down from my crotch), add 1.5" on my upper arms, add 1" on my forearms. I'm not super concerned with growth on my back or chest, but I really want to chase numbers on my limbs since they still look lanky to me with how tall I am.

Man, if you can add size and still get that cut for shows...


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SAWCE wrote: ↑Thu Dec 13, 2018 3:42 pm Got the profession pictures that I paid for from my show.
Favorite two so far:



My gym is gonna hang my picture on the wall with everyone else who has competed and won from there and famous people who have trained there. Going with the first picture with the side chest pose for that. Will be pretty surreal to see myself hanging on a wall that also has a picture of Arnold on it.

SAWCE wrote: ↑Thu Dec 13, 2018 3:42 pm Got the profession pictures that I paid for from my show.
Favorite two so far:



My gym is gonna hang my picture on the wall with everyone else who has competed and won from there and famous people who have trained there. Going with the first picture with the side chest pose for that. Will be pretty surreal to see myself hanging on a wall that also has a picture of Arnold on it.

SAWCE wrote:Got the profession pictures that I paid for from my show.
Favorite two so far:



My gym is gonna hang my picture on the wall with everyone else who has competed and won from there and famous people who have trained there. Going with the first picture with the side chest pose for that. Will be pretty surreal to see myself hanging on a wall that also has a picture of Arnold on it.

Calvinball wrote: ↑Thu Dec 13, 2018 8:27 pm

SAWCE wrote:Got the profession pictures that I paid for from my show.
Favorite two so far:



My gym is gonna hang my picture on the wall with everyone else who has competed and won from there and famous people who have trained there. Going with the first picture with the side chest pose for that. Will be pretty surreal to see myself hanging on a wall that also has a picture of Arnold on it.

Super cool.

Also, knowing how much work and effort went into you doing what you did makes looking at Ahnold in his prime bodybuilding days just that much more mind blowing.


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SAWCE wrote: ↑Sat Dec 29, 2018 9:22 am 4 weeks post-show. Weight is up to 199, but that reading today is a bit high since I had a few extra cheat meals this week with the holidays and visiting family. I had been holding steady at 197.7ish before that. Strength is coming back, and I’m staying lean, so I’m hopeful that 2-3lbs of that weight is actual lean muscle tissue. The rest is all gonna be water, stored glycogen, and a little bit of fat.

Training changed a bit so I’m hitting arms twice a week now. Working kore if my lower chest on my chest day, and then adding in a bit for upper chest after my main arm day. Legs are staying split into two days, one quad focused and one hamstring focused. Shoulders are still just one day, but higher volume than I trained with last year. Back is similar to last year still, it’ll keep growing, but everything else should slowly catch up to it.

Tarspin wrote: ↑Mon Dec 10, 2018 8:38 pm

SAWCE wrote: ↑Wed Dec 05, 2018 12:48 pm On a different/bad note, I had a weird realization as I looked through pictures again yesterday and spent some time on the ones of my mom and I. Our faces have the same sunken in look although mine is more pronounced. Weird to think that mine is by choice, where her's is becaue of the cancer/chemo/radiation literally killing her and making her so sick all the time that she can't bring herself to eat. The whole thing seemed incredibly fucked up when that hit me and had me in a weird mood the rest of the day.

Fuck man. Coming to terms with your parents' mortality when they're so relatively young is rough. Part of me wishes I could trade places with her, but the other part of me knows it'd be even harder for her to watch me go through that as her child than it is for me to watch her. Which is worse, physical or emotional pain?

My 58 yr old uncle passed away this week. The family if devastated. It's really hard both ways buddy.